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Counting Crows
Who It’s For
If you love The Years by Annie Ernaux, All Men Want to Know by Nina Bouraoui, or nostalgic cross‑cultural novels like Exit West, you’ll find Counting Crows deeply moving.
"Maybe it’s not Gus. Maybe it’s everything else—the things I lost without even knowing I wanted them.
Like motherhood.
I never wanted it. Not really. I never saw myself cradling a baby, singing lullabies, being someone’s mother though I pretended I was trying for Henry and his dreams of paternity. But now that the choice is fading away, now that I might never be able to be a mother—the loss is becoming a phantom limb. It’s not the absence of a child I miss. It’s the power to decide. It’s knowing there’s a part of me, soon, I’ll never get to explore. Or the weight of not knowing how to tell Henry we should stop trying after all these months. The weight of the lies I tell are choking me but I can’t bear the thought of being anything less than a woman in his eyes. As if, without motherhood, without my reproductive system intact, womanhood holds any meaning at all. P10
What It’s About
Tina is a successful Iranian American painter in New York, married to a loving husband but something inside her is fraying. She grew up in chaotic 1990s Tehran, and her past still whispers. A chance memory of Gus, a boy from her teenage days, reignites a longing she thought she’d escaped.
Now she believes finding him could free her blocked creativity and unlock a part of herself she’s lost. As she travels back through time and memory, she confronts the cost of escape, identity, and forgiveness.
Themes & Tone
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A thoughtful coming-of-age story of cultural exile and creative struggle
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Explores longing, loss, identity, and the weight of unspoken choices
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Told in quiet, poetic prose that moves between past and present with emotional clarity
Why You’ll Care
Counting Crows is a meditation on memory, identity, and the silent ache of missed chances. It’s ideal for readers who want literary fiction that reflects the complexity of longing and growing across borders.
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